Oh 2024!

The Year of Losses

Photo by Shane Guymon on Unsplash

9.5 months of the year have gone by.
Gone like a wind. Actually- like a whirlwind.

For quite some time, I have considered progress to be determined on 4 pillars-

1. Mental
2. Physical
3. Emotional
4. Spiritual

Right now, I feel like I have been check-mated in all 4 of them.

2024 has been about tiny victories and heavy defeats-

The Troughs-

• Changing career course,
• Shutting my non-profit (operationally),
• Going through some tough learnings in relationships with my people,
• Losing my pet dog- The one incident that has put so many questions in my head.

The Crests-

• Running a 35k,
• Trip to Mukhteshwar, Ladakh, Mumbai-Lonavala and Rishikesh.

While writing this-

1. I am not where I wanted to be in my career and side hustle
2. I am not where I wanted to be physically.
3. I have not been able to read and write as much

Actually I have not only been lagging but have taken few steps backwards.

At the start of the year- I was taking therapy and got better.
But last week came very close to calling my therapist again.

Not that I am ashamed of taking help but have been trying to find the balance myself.

Though there have been some strong learnings about being in a relationship, what is expected from me at work and being able to be there for my people in tough times.

But all of it have been taking a toll on me to a point I feel picking myself up just to fall again.

I am choosing to share some of it here to-

1. Let go of some of it
2. Get you to know that the way I see it that this year has been ruthless but still it is only YET.

I write this to convey that the coming ~3.5 months or 12–14 weeks can still be a point to begin for you and me.

To begin to believe that it might not have been a good start and can still very much be good ending to 2024.

To fall 1000 times, still get back 1001.

To take one day at a time, still be grateful for being given a chance to fight again.

Fight better.

So, hold on to nothing but hope.

Hope that you found some courage by now.

Move Forward. Life has so much to offer.

Best,
Mandy